"i had like ten minutes to spare, which is good, cus im african. and im never on time."
- Aminat.

hahahahahahaha

this sums it up pretty well

hehehe.

still not done ISU, guess im doing it on spare. fk.

stop making yourself so vulnerable. for fuck sakes.

killa says: " think of him as evil temptation
like the garden that adam and eve were in, and
if you eat him you'll be naked for the rest of your life"

thanks. you know how much i dont like being naked
so this actually helped.

you know when someone says something to you and it just sticks with you and you dislike them cus of this ONE thing they said to you ONE time.
god i hate that girl, and im tempted to bring it up and just call her out so bad, but i think the time has kinda passed and i would just seem like a delayed psycho crazy beetch. whutevr. james mcavoy is nice :) last king of scotland was MESSED however, people are just NOT nice to other people. its not right. in the mean time my "this is the plan" hasnt been going to well. but it starts tomorrow. i need to make another list...

"You know what, David, I don't care if Ryan murdered his entire family. He is like a son to me." - Michael Scott.

the sweet joy of not having a billion shifts for a little while is abruptly demolished when you realize you only made 80 quid, in two weeks. seriously.
whatever this money is gunna pay a phone bill...
TONIGHT. is the night
for lists.

L I S T S


i like sitting in my room and ranting about things i should have ranted about a long time ago. i really like it. things are really starting to surface and i have to realize its the only way im ever gunna get over shit. so yeah. i have to stop carrying around this huge bag of hate/anger and just bike around a little moe and sit in what we now call " the sanctuary "

mambazo.

when did this gain happen? fat fuck.
i found a picture of FMM by accident. bad news bears.
tatoo pictures, i felt a "major pang in my heart" as coats would say.
i just want it so badly, just the size of my thumb. on my siderib...or side neck.

we will run run run. thats the tat i want. i want it bad.

i will wait a year.

still havent made lists...fknfk

its 9:50am and i havent done my ISU rough draft.
i fell asleep last night in my clothes by accident and woke up completely dissoriented.
i have to do my work and bus to school...
i still havent made my lists. but i think i'll post them in the sidebar when im done
even though no one reads this.
fuck i cant focus.
okay. work.
now.
kbye.

i dont need a friend that bad. no.
this hissing of summer lawns. says joni
the shine of rain on the street. says me

happy birthday killalittla
&

read this please

cactus tree.

ps. im not going to invsisble children.

i love watermelon.

again and again im all over these two places.
and i like NEITHER OF THEM.
instead of doing my ISU i think i'll spend tonight cleaning my room
and making lists.
first i'll make a list of the lists i need to make and then i'll write them.
and then i'll put them in places.
and then i'll read them outloud.

this was my first list.

i bought plants today.
and black people shampoo.

"black people have expensive hair"
"yeah well they like to spend money on hair stuff"
"annnnnd subsequently...they live in ghettos?"

- black people logic by mum and hface.

Parrell Williams

i would.

happy easter

I WANT YOU. YOU KNOW I WANT YOU SO BAD

i feel dizzy and im getting headaches on and off and im back to that thing where hot food makes me feel sick SLASH almost every food.

no appetite

"no wait you gotta hear this part, listen!"
"wow he must been on some pretty good shit that day"

mum remarking on bobby harmonica solo

UNITED STATES OF TARA.

goddamned yuppies. & being misunderstood in that brick hell house.

montreal

marriot
menthes d'hôtel num num
h&m
simons
..des autres
un bon nombre de robes
sommeil et transpiration EW
HA HA HA HA EWWWWWW "oui c'est TOUT moi." HA! imbicile
écharpe laissée ...oh h
une boir du l'eau seulement si vous plais.
francais ou anglais?...anglais SVP
CHANTER CHANSONS - "heave away!"
thé par darjeeling
montreal j'taime
sa va? non, je suis radieux et contenu.

downtalk to uptalk.
can you reverse psychology yourself..
im getting dumber everyday.

she wins at everything.
i dont know what im good at.
im just kinda mediocre at a lot of things


so apparently im stocky.
thanks
and i get dirty looks from a mombitch at the park
i have bad luck.
i need that money.
i need to get out of this slum
im seriously considering an in depth study of buddhist practice, in the form of self deprivation. i need to find ENLIGHTENMENT.